no one will stay

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ 

In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful

These days, I feel so left out. Kawan-kawan aku semua keluar tanpa aku. Tanpa notis. Okay, once in a while, it's fine sebab aku faham. Mungkin mereka perlu their own spaces atau ada benda yang nak dibincangkan tanpa aku dengar (husnuzon). But it happened all the time. Dua orang kawan aku yang aku rapat these last few weeks pun buat benda yang sama, setelah jumpa kawan baru.

I really have no idea what should I feel. 

But it's hurt. A lot. 

And this is also the reason kenapa aku susah sangat nak betul-betul percaya orang. Sedangkan kawan yang dah duduk sebumbung pun mampu buat aku rasa macam ni, apatah lagi orang lain. Kan? Ke tak?

I'm writing this while trying to hold my tears (it's hard duh).

And now, everything does makes sense. No one will stay. I just need me, and the Creator. But, Alhamdulillah I should be grateful because at this moment I still have my family with me, and Fila. No one knows until when he'll stay. Tapi selagi ada, aku bersyukur dan aku appreciate sangat.

Doa-doa moga dia sentiasa ada.

Till then xoxo