Sunday, 31 December 2017

things that i'm proud of in 2017


There are so many things happened in one year and also created bunch of great memories that I'll cherish forever.


Things that I'm proud of/happy with in 2017 ;

  1. I kind of allow myself to do different things; ajk hiasan, hadiah, keusahawanan, pendaftaran and Ketua Pengarah
  2. I did well in handling money and sales & yes, I make so much money
  3. I less dependant on people err a bit lah 
  4. I went hiking 3 times this year 🌱
  5. I teached one person for UPSR 😂
  6. I pushed one person away from my life because she didn't appreciate me as a friend when I was treating her so nicely & I did not regret it at all
  7. I managed to handle the program that I held in November all by myself; things was hard, I cried and had mental breakdown but Alhamdulillah I pushed myself to the limit & the program also went smoothly
  8. I didn't really watched any new drama in semester 3 at the college hm at least 
  9. The total hours of activities that I participated in was 77 hours ✨
  10. I control myself from buying things online for 8 months weh haha feeling so proud duh
  11. I made friends with juniors hehe 
  12. Did 4 presentations quite okay and 1 microbial art that I never have done before
  13. I was in charge of managing the sophys seki every week for UBFest
  14. I started selling new flavors of ice cream at the college & I get lot of praises 'bout them oh yeah 🍨
  15. O yea, I made new medicines this year ahaa but suppositories was a failure no matter how many times I did 💊
  16. I went to Kelantan for my second cousin's wed for the first time ever
  17. I watched theatre for the first time in my entire life although the theatre was conducted by the students but it was so good and so funny I couldn't stop laughing since the beginning of the story
  18. I still go to surau for isya' berjemaah Alhamdulillah
  19. I had the best 19th birthday celebration and suprises in my whole life 🎈🍰

Also, of course there are a few things I wish I could do better in 2017 💤

Things that I regret in 2017 ;

  1. I cried a lot this year hm for so many reasons
  2. I did not focused in class; I chatted with the person sitting next to me, I also get sleepy
  3. I didn't go to usrah at college this year 📝 I regret this the most, my heart felt empty
  4. I had a-kind-of-a-small-fight-but-not-really-a-fight-just-not-talking-for-4-days-for-no-reason with my roommate err idk what to say about this but we are good now
  5. I get low carry marks but it's okay I'll try harder later
  6. I failed my lab test; I blamed suppositories 😤
  7. I get angry a lot especially to the boys sorry, I couldn't control my emotions hm my bad
  8. I still can't speak confidently, I still scared and still me
  9. I am getting lazy to help my parents with house chores 
  10. I kinda lazy to go to the library so I just went there twice
  11. I didn't listen to SHINee's songs as much as I did in 2010 and I regret that a lot especially after Jonghyun's death
  12. I couldn't have a meet-up with my old best friends; everyone is so busy they could barely have time for a hangout 👭
  13. I still couldn't go to Big Bad Wolf and I read novel less
  14. And last, I complain a lot
Thanks 2017 for an amazing year and thank you for changing and shaping me to become much better person than last year, that's for sure hehe. May my 2018 become a great year and to many memories to create, to many people to meet and also to more goals to achieve 🌠

Wednesday, 27 December 2017

goodnight, bling bling prince


I was devastated as soon as I heard the news about his death. My heart stopped beating for awhile, I could hardly breathe, my heart ached and my mind went blank. I was sad but the feelings didn't showed at first. I was confused, hoping the post that went viral about him were a lie.

I do hope this bad news are just some kind of bad joke 😢

I hope his death isn't real.

I couldn't bring myself together. I cried my balls out for the whole week and couldn't stop listening to their old songs, always my favourite out of all.

I think I never mentioned about them here but they were all over my posts in my previous 10 blogs, before I created this one.

Back in 2010, my best friend, Sazianty showed something to the girls in our class. It was SHINee's music video 🎥 That was the first time I heard about Korean and their country. I never knew that country even exist HAHAHAHA but yes, I started to listen to Ring Ding Dong short after she showed it to us and the first thought that came into my mind was Oh god, they all look the same and yes, very handsome hehe 💞 The first Korean guy that catch my attention was Jonghyun and he was my bias for awhile before Key took his place. I was so obsessed with them, I even asked my friend to share SHINee's Hello Baby videos via bluetooth. The amount of space all the videos took in my phone memory just made me more anxious because I couldn't took more selfies or installed some popular games. That was the first Korean variety show I've watched and yes, I had fun laughing and crying through the episodes. I remembered when I received laptop as UPSR present early in 2011, the first thing I googled was SHINee's profiles 😂 I looked up for each member profiles and jotted them down in my notebook and also downloaded hundreds of photos and gifs that have them in it. I can recall those days when I cried silently at night as I listened to The Named I Loved and Last Gift because these two songs are very very very sad I couldn't hold back tears. And again, those songs made me cry.

It has been ages since the last time I was crazy about them.

Ever since, Sherlock, hmm I stopped listen to their songs. I mean, the new ones.

But I still love them, all of them.

No matter how big, successful and popular other groups are, no matter how much I stan over Wanna One; SHINee and Girls Generation will always be my favourite king and queen who let me into this beautiful world and journey of kpop that no one could understand.

I love Jonghyun, I will always do.

May you rest in peace, forget about the hardships you went through and only remember the good ones 💖

I was planning to write a long post, but the words didn't come out. I was planning to write about you Jonghyun oppa, a day after your death when viral, but I couldn't control my feelings. Even when I was answering Public Health test on 19 Dec, I cried. In the class, when lecturer was busy talking infront in the lecture hall, I cried. That's how much you mean to me 💗😭


Saturday, 9 December 2017

cracked suppositories


Another hectic week done! ☑

I'm sorry for keep missing in action these past 2 months. I've been wanting to post something but I could barely find time to create a new post. I'll hardly post anything for the upcoming weeks until final exam finish at the end of January 2018 (it's new year gais 🎉)

Bertam Sport Carnival: Modern in Tradition, Feed the Needy: Reach Out to Help and few other posts are still in the draft, not even half complete. I might publish them all during semester break, or maybe if I go home during study week and I get tired reading lecture notes, I'll post it then. Hahaha 😂

First of all, Alhamdulillah, the day where I've been waiting for since 5 weeks ago has finally come. I'm done with Unity Bertam Fest 🎪 I wanted to thank everyone who has been helping me out since the first week of the event until the end especially my girls and boys, not forgetting my dearest 20 juniors.

I'll do separate post special for them later on. I'll try my best huhu.

I have 2 presentations, 2 tests and 1 quiz for next week 📚 Am still working on the slides for movie review for English class. For Public Health subject, I am done with my part for Hypertension banner that my group will present next Friday. May Allah ease everything 😊

I think I failed my lab test for Solid Dosage Form subject hmm dunno, 'cause the suppositories that I made during the test aren't nice and some of them are cracked 💔 I made 2 moulds of phenolbarbiturate suppositories for 2 hours and that still not enough 💊

I didn't cry, I really didn't 💔

This is me waiting for the suppositories to harden 😂

Did you watch MAMA 2017? I did hehehehe but I only watched the performances especially Wanna One 💞, Seventeen, Samuel. I'm very proud of Samuel he did really great in Vietnam but I do hope he'll win some awards soon. My precious Seventeen, they did great, as always! I love them all oh myyyyyyyyy 😍

Have you listen to Beautiful by Wanna One?!?!?!?!? 🎶

I am addicted to it now maigod that song just very calming and I couldn't stop listening to Daniel's parts. His voice is very too really amazingly undoubtly sexy as ever 💗 Sigh, why why why they come to Malaysia when I'll be sitting for final exam duh?!?!?! I know I'm broke but still, I want the chance to meet them as one group before they'll disband next year 😭

Alright, enough with this short update! Go and check out Beautiful MV ok hihi bye bye 👋 

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