Tuesday, 27 June 2017

my babysitter since I was a baby


I was planning to lay on the couch with both legs open wearing my loose tee paired with dark blue pant and watch special Raya program on this day 2 of Syawal.

But then, after Zohor.....


You know I am lazy to go out when I wear this crumple shawl

I was at my babysitter's house in Sungai Ramal Dalam donning grey Arabian shawl matched with red baju kurung. The last time I met Wan and Atok was during last year Hari Raya. My family and I stayed for almost 1 hour, talking about life and how their business doing these days. I am thankful to Allah for giving them good health especially when they are at their old ages.

As I was observing and staring at their faces, seeing their wrinkles, eye bags and beard, I could not deny how grateful I am and how I miss to be under their cares. They took care of me since I was a baby until I was in standard 5 before I start staying at home alone after school ends. I stayed at their place from early in the morning until late evening on weekdays and sometimes, I still there at night. I also slept at their house for a few times. I met and befriended with Wan and Atok's grandchildren playing with them all day long. I was the oldest among other kids so, whatever I did, they followed.

Typing this, reminds me of the good and bad old days at my second home. Believe it or not, I used to be a really naughty kid they barely could controlled me. They were strict to each of the kids they babysitted in a good way, especially when it comes to Islam. I often get scolded because I was lazy to perform solat.

They make nasi lemak and roti canai for business. They also sold fried mee and few kind of kuih such as karipap, seri muka and talam. I helped them to pack nasi lemak and follow Maman to send it to Petronas.

I had my first makan dalam talam at their house.

They brought me to Bagan Lalang and I caught small crabs with my hands.

I went to the pool for swimming from time to time with Kak Ita. Err obviously, I swam at the kids' pool πŸ˜‚

I went to museum in Kuala Lumpur with Wan and Atok and got a scar above my right ankle when I was off the motorcyle.

They are a lot of great things I experienced myself when I was babysitted by them.

But the best thing was they gave their precious love to me, as if I was their own daughter. Alhamdulillah, I am growing up to be a fine lady thanks to their cares.

Love your parent and whoever that had been taking care and loving you. They are the greatest gift temporarily given by Allah so, appreciate them.

Monday, 26 June 2017

unusual chit chat during raya


How was your first day of Raya μ—¬λŸ¬λΆ„?

Mine was pretty much the same as the other years where we celebrate Raya in Kajang. Except for this year first Raya was a lot more plain and boring because there were no people coming. My mom decided not to do open house and only invited our close families and friends because she said she's getting older, psst she's turning 55 years old and all this open house thingy is tiring her (and me too!)

After my father returned back from masjid, my mother, younger sister and I who were done dressed up will salam, say the same sentences every year "Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf Zahir dan Batin". The adat in my parent's families is put both hands together and then put it on the eldest's lap and tunduk so that our heads touch the hands. Pelik but that's how we salam the eldest (family members only) during Hari Raya and Raya Haji.

Blessed my artistic hands; green color is the head, the orange is the hands.

As soon as we finished salam each other, we took photos, hmm more to selfie than family photo. Then we went to Makwa's house which is only 2 minutes away from our house. Makwa is my mak long and she's 10 years older than my dad. Abah has 12 siblings and he is the tenth. We went there and had a long chit-chat and eating session and took my first selfie with Firdaus, who we called Pait. Mamat was there as well.

Thanks lighting and filter for making me look amazing

From left; Aida, Mama and Adik

You should see how hard it was to take selfies when Mama wants to play with her tab πŸ˜’
Introducing, my 55 years old Mama

I teached her how to wear shawl this morning

Annoying sister


The cousins 
Duit rayaaaaaa

Some of our chit chat were about Ayat's (20 years old) and Mamat's (25 years old) wedding day which are only a few days and 2 months away respectively. They have no idea how excited I am!!!! We have been growing up looking at each other's faces and playing houses when we were kids. And now, they are going to get themselves a wife!? "Makcik" Nurul is so happy 😁😁 Later, I'll be nenek soon.

Wow, so young to be a nenek.

I thought we  were just talking about theirs' wedding but hey,

"Nurul, bila kau nak kahwin"

"Aku baru 19 tahun weh"

"Ayat tu umur 20 tahun baru"

"Aku boyfriend pun takde, nak kahwin apa"

"Cari lah"

My cousin who is the mother to Pait, Kak Sham also told be this, "Kau makcik diorang kena lah kahwin dulu, baru betul"

Absolutely, it was an unusual chat in Raya morning.

I feel sooooooooooo old guys πŸ˜‘ I heard people will only start to receive those kind of questions when they are around 25 years old. But, I get it now, and I'm not even in my twenties yet. Sigh.

In the evening, no one came. It was so quiet I could hear the fans' sounds. I slept, of course, in my baju kurung and Arabian shawl. Guests started to come late evening, around maghrib and now, at 12 am, they are still here talking, and eating.

I know they have so much to talk and gossip about, but excuse meh, I want to sleep people πŸ’€πŸ’€πŸ’€

μ—¬λŸ¬λΆ„: yeo-reo-bun (everyone)

Sunday, 25 June 2017

my beautiful ketupat


Amidst the hustle and bustle of preparing the food for tomorrow, I managed to sneak in some time to write this up. 

Okay, where should I start? 

I helped peeling bunch of red onions and garlics for 2 hours last night for rendang. My eyes and fingers were burning and I was literally crying. I hate you, onions!! 😠 How dare you make me cryyy you are not even my boyfriend =___=" 

Then, I put the cookies and kerepek in colourful tupperware to serve to the guests. One cookies into the tupperware and another one into the mouth. It is clearly my favorite part of preparing for Hari Raya.

Today, after sahur and perform Subuh prayer, I slept again. I woke up a bit late but not when the sun was right above the head. My parent went to wet market quite early in the morning, leaving my younger sister, little cousin and I alone at home to buy 4 kilogram of meat and 4 chickens. Fuhh, I was so thankful they didn't forced me to go with them. Most of the time, when I accompany them to the wet market, my father and I will just wait outside while my mother buys everything she needs. God, I'm lucky I am young and my legs are still strong to stand for hours. She takes an hour or more to settle her weekly shopping spree and both my father and I just stand there, looking at other people selling their items and some of them also waiting for their wives and mothers like us. 

I let my sister did almost everything. Ugh, she deserved it what!? She had much more energy because she's not fasting (pms thing) In the afternoon, my mother cooked her rendang daging while I helped her to look after the ketupat pulut and nasi impit. All I need to do was stirred it from time to time so that, it won't hangus at the bottom. It was blazing hot outside, so I dragged a small fan and switched it on. Due to boredom, my cousin and I watched 'Goblin' on my laptop. It was like killing two birds with one stone, huh? πŸ˜‰ I am so bijak!

My baby ketupat look really beautiful. They must be taking after me πŸ˜›

I fold the clothes after that. 

Around 4 pm, I went to my cousin's house next door since the whole family were going to their kampung in Johor. I spent one hour and a half chatting and watching them packing their clothes. I used to stay there for hours, well, their house was my house back then. We used to play house, ting ting, run races, baseball, football, badminton and climb trees to pick some rambutan. Now, all of us have grown up. So nostalgic! I can't believe in another few days, one of them who is 1 year older than me are getting married. I feel so old πŸ˜‘ And I am so so soooooooo excited!!! 

At night, which is just now, I played bunga api and pop pop with my other cousins. Not as fun as we celebrate Raya in Sarawak. I have a lot of cousins there and the house will be so noise. Ah, that's makes me feel very grateful to have such beautiful big family that I can laugh out loud, and do crazy things freely without care about what people think.

Okay, I am sleepy. I better put on face mask  before bed to look pretty for Raya.

Selamat Hari Raya everyone. Forgive all my wrongdoings. May Allah bless us and our families, Amin. Have a wonderful Eidulfitri  πŸŽŠπŸŽŠ

Friday, 23 June 2017

a dream about marrying a stranger


I am typing this right now, while sipping my favorite iced milo. Haa πŸ˜‹ nothing better than this after doing spring cleaning for Eid. I never enjoy sweeping and mopping the floor (I'm not good at mopping) Not fun at all. I rather do laundry and fold the clothes for hours. Much easier. And I can do that while watching my Korean dramas.

Last night, I dreamed I get married. To a stranger. That weird dream started when suddenly the groom put on a wedding ring on my right ring finger. The feeling was so overwhelming, even when I woke up, I can still felt it. At that moment, I feel a bit happy because I always want to get into marriage at early age, but I also feel overburden because of the responsibility and I hate the groom a lot. I mean, excuse me I don't even know who you are and I don't know why I am marrying you right now and I am only 20 years old though πŸ˜’ But I still treat him well, ugh weird Aida.

All of a sudden, the setting changed. I was eating at dining hall with some old people and also the groom, I guess. Most likely, the groom's family. After everyone done eating, in an instant, I stood up and cleaned the table. I could felt I was aware that was only a dream and what happening because I told myself to stop doing the chores because they are not a family of mine.

Okay, then, I was in someone else's bedroom. I have no idea what's happening. All I know, I was on the bed, next to a guy. I wanted to cry so hard. Really hard.

It was a really really really strange dream.

Later, I told my mom and she said maybe I am going to get marry soon, then she giggled.

Ma, that's not funny, you don't know how scared I was to dream of marrying someone. I still want to be with you, forever. I still want to sneak into your bedroom and sleep next to you #idothatalmosteveryweektho #clingydaughter #ithinkiamfourkot

Tuesday, 20 June 2017

K-SHOW | Produce 101 Season 2: Wanna One


The finale episode of Produce 101 Season 2 was out 2 days ago, but I haven't watch it yet. There's no English subtitle at the moment so, there's no way I can tell what they are saying throughout the 2 hours of show. Well, I do understand a few basic words and simple sentences that Korean people mostly used in their daily lives but still, it doesn't really help when it comes to this kind of survival show especially when they talk super fast. I can't catch a word. Duh, I am a beginner, people πŸ˜‘

Although I haven't watch any of Produce 101 finalists' performances, I got the spoiler though. As I scroll down my Instagram explore, I saw a lot of sad captions about Samuel. I started to get anxious and feel uneasy about what is happening to him. Of course I am worried, when I first watch episode 1 of Produce 101 Season 2, Kim Samuel is the one who make me eager to keep watching the next episodes. Soon after that, I google about the 11 members who succeed make it into Wanna One. Sadly, he's not included. I still upset and disappoint with the result, however I hope Samuel can get a better opportunity to debut. Maybe not in idol group but as a soloist? That way, he can shine brighter than the others.

Besides the top 11 members chosen are Kang Daniel, Park Jihoon, Lee Daehwi, Kim Jaehwan, Ong Seongwoo, Park Woojin, Lai Guanlin, Yoon Jisung, Hwang Minhyun, Bae Jinyoung and Ha Sungwoon, there are some other trainees who are in my top list for their personalities, visuals, singing, hardworks and determinations.

I've been following every episode of Produce 101 since Season 1 and I would say I learnt a lot just from watching.

From becoming strong physically and mentally,

to always believe and have confidence in ourselves,

to always calm,

to not being greedy,

to always grateful with what we have,

to have good communication with others,

to become someone that others can rely on,

to always help the others in need,

to be a good and responsible leader,

to give out positive energy to people surround us,

and  practice makes perfect no matter if ones is born with the talent or not.

There are a lot of things I learnt from Produce 101 contestants. I'll try my best in anything I am doing. μ†”μ§νžˆ, I want to be a good leader who is responsible, and a person that everyone can rely on like Kim Jonghyun and Noh Taehyun. I always have a problem in communicating with people, since I love being alone without socialize with others. κ·Έλž˜μ„œ, I want to try to talk more and become like Kang Daniel and Jang Moonbok who are able to give out a positive energy to those surrounds me. μ—΄μ‹¬νžˆ λ…Έλ ₯ν•˜κ² μŠ΅λ‹ˆλ‹€ 😣

μ†”μ§νžˆ: sol-jik-hi (Honestly)
κ·Έλž˜μ„œ: geu-rae-so (So/Therefore)
μ—΄μ‹¬νžˆ λ…Έλ ₯ν•˜κ² μŠ΅λ‹ˆλ‹€: yeol-shim-hi no-ryeok-ha-gess-seum-ni-da (I'll try hard)

Saturday, 17 June 2017

driving II


After days of driving lesson on the track and 1 day on the road, on Thursday, my trainer took me for QTI (Qualifying Test at Institute) which is a pre-test. It was so sudden that I couldn't help myself but get nervous. I had to pass it anyway in order to be able to take the JPJ test.

I thought I only have to be tested on the track, but nope, I have to drive on the road also. The moment the driving institute instructor pointed to me the car that I'll be driving, I told myself "λ§ν–ˆλ‹€....λ‚΄κ°€ 끝났닀". I use Perodua Kancil during the whole driving lesson class but then, I have to drive Perodua Axia for the first time, on QTI day.

Once I sat on the driver seat, I forgot everything I learnt. As I drive towards the hill, I remembered I forget to put on the seat belt. Astaghfirullah, how can I forget such important thing? Luckily, it's just a pre-test, and the driving institute instructor not yet with me. If not, I would most probably failed πŸ˜“ I should relaxed back then. I did great on the track, no mistakes at all exclude the seat belt.

After I was done with the track, the instructor got into the car and told me to continue with road driving. I did..........okay bad, I guess. Sighed. Enjin asyik mati, lagi-lagi masa kat traffic light  πŸ˜­ I am sure that's my most concern 'bout driving since the first lesson. The instructor get annoyed,

"Jangan bagi enjin mati"

"Cepat sikit, laju lagi laju"

"Enjin mati lagi"

"Mati lagi aduh"

I didn't do it intentionally, okay? Duh, you are getting on my nerves *roll eyes*

At the finishing line, he sort of halau me away. He said "Dah, keluar! Keluar, keluar".
That's hurt my pride tho. Whatever, all that matter is I passed the QTI!!!!! And right away, my trainer book a date for JPJ test for me. It'll be on 21st July 😱😱😱 I am starting to get tired of going to driving lesson now, therefore I want this to end quickly.

λ§ν–ˆλ‹€ : mang-haett-da (I screwed up)

λ‚΄κ°€ 끝났닀: nae-ga kkeut-natt-da (I am finished)

Monday, 12 June 2017

driving I


Hi guys, I'm still in the process of learning car driving and nah, I don't think I can get my license before Eid. Last two weeks, I learnt how to drive at selekoh and how to park the car. I did well. At least my teacher complimented me. And this morning, I practice it again. I thought I'll do well but Aigoo, I keep making mistakes.

Practice after practice, I did well on my own. Okay, I should have give myself a pat on the shoulder. It wasn't easy, duuh.

Then, I drove on the road. I was extremely happy and scared at the exact time. I wasn't sure either to smile or not so, I did both. I look funny 😌 but still, I'm fab πŸ’†

Nah, take it, this is my bare face! (Almost, I only put on bedak Johnson and a bit of lip tint) Yes, those pimple scars on both cheeks are from the past 2 months breakout

I'm tired from waiting for my turns and haus also. Teacher, hurry pls I'm fasting, when is my turn?! πŸ˜‘

I always hyper after driving lesson and will tell my parents and sister how the lesson goes. My father never believed me in almost everything. Everytime I tell him I can't wait to drive on the road with my P license, he'll be like

"Aish, belum boleh lagi. Ingat jalan raya sekarang ni macam dulu ke. Silap hari bulan, boleh accident"

I know what he says is true. But the thing is that, isn't he suppose to encourage me? 😞

That was when I remembered about my Kerja Kayu project when I was in Form 2. It was suppose to be done individually but, my hasil kerja was done by many people. I wasn't lazy, okay!? It was just I need some helps from those around me. My best friend, Raudha gave me a hand to cut the wood because I was scared of the mesin gergaji. I cut the wood too, a little bit. After cutting, it's the time to nail it. My now and then guy best friend, Ammar helped me. At one point, I knocked his nail with hammer. It was a funny accident. I couldn't forget that moment and I believed, him too. At home, with the color sprays I bought, I wanted to spray the kayu on my own. But my never-believe-your-daughter father took the spray and did it all. I was pretty mad at him because that's my project and I wanted to do it myself 😬 He told me, I didn't know how to do it in the right way lah and I would messed up everything. Okay, whatever.

Masa macam ni lah I miss my high school friends including my guy best friends, Ammar and Aiman. They were one of my best friends ever. They helped and encouraged me so much back then. I helped them too, including did their homeworks. Ammar moved to another school in Egypt in September 2012. Alhamdulillah dah selesai hafal 30 juz Al quran. Although we were miles apart but we are still close until now. Thanks to Whatsapp. He's currently studying for fast-track SPM sebab dulu kan dia duduk Mesir. Aiman pulak went to boarding school in 2014 and I was a bit upset because he didn't tell me about moving. I knew the news after I asked his girl friend why he didn't come to school for days. I thought we were best friend? 😒 I didn't save his phone number and he changed his. He lost my number and we couldn't keep in touch with each other and I haven't heard anything from him until the beginning of this year through Instagram. But at the end of March, I deleted my instagram account and I forgot to ask his current phone number. So, we lose contact again.

oh God! Why do I have friends like this? 
They are probably forget about the pictures ahah, that was taken on Thursday in the class in 2012, when we were in Form 2. They were childish back then, now they must be more mature, I guess.

I hope one day, I could meet them and all my high school friends again.

And I also wish my father will have some faith in me someday 😊

Monday, 5 June 2017

REVIEW | Eversoft Organic Yuzu & Ginkgo Cleanser


All girls want a perfect skin without having a single complexion. A smooth, poreless, fair, healthy, glowing and pimple-free skin has always been girls' desire. Including myself.

I have friends, and they thought my skin's almost flawless. Nope, they are wrong. I've been struggling to fight my combination & acne-prone skin but Alhamdulillah it's getting much much more better than when I was in primary school. However, during that time of the month, or final exam or when I sleep late at night, I have to be ready with Oxy 10 cream and Bio Oil. But, still contrallable.

And every time the pimples show up on my face, I have this bad habit of popping the pimples that appeared on my face. I do that most of the time and it left scars that required months to completely vanish.

I wasn't sure what went wrong for the past 3 months, but I keep on getting bad breakouts here and there. Especially on the cheeks. It was really painful that I couldn't help myself from popping them. I felt better after that although some of them were cystic acne so, trying to pop them won't do anything. The moment I looked at myself in the mirror, oh god! I thought I saw a ghost. I looked terrible.

"I can't go out looking like this" 

I did go out a few times, only to the driving school and had couples of dinner with family at restaurant. I tried so hard to put a lot of concealer to cover the pimples scars and make it looks natural before going out. It still look hideous.

My secondary school girl friends asked me out last month, but I gave excuses instead. I was really sorry but I can't show my face full of breakout and scars to them!? They might get a nightmare because of me. But I promise I'll make it up to them somehow.

I tried to be religious with my skin routine, but that didn't help. Don't laugh, but I almost tried to use feminine wash on my face. I found a few videos and entries that said "feminine wash" helps to treat acne, and I went to Watson and Guardian to search for Summer's Eve feminine wash but it's nowhere to be found. So, I asked my mom to buy me a Lactacyd feminine wash but she forgot. Okay, fine.

And one day, as I scrolling down on Iman's blog, I found an entry of her doing a review on Eversoft's cleanser. Then, I started to google more Eversoft reviews. Well, most of them are good reviews. That's why I wanted to give this drugstore cleanser a try.

Two weeks ago, with the only money left in my purse, RM 20, I went to the Watson. I searched for Eversoft's section and stared down at the cleansers displayed on the shelves. Then, a salesgirl came to me and asked what skin problem that I was facing. She recommended me to buy Eversoft Organic Yuzu & Gingko Cleanser. I am glad it cost less than RM 20 or else I'm penniless.

I love the smell of the cleanser so much! My skin's getting way better and pimples are lessen each day. No breakout so far. Oh my.....this cleanser is wonderful 🎊🎊 I am in loveeeeee 😍

Eversoft Organic Facial Cleansers are formulated with 100% organic plant extracts that are:

  • Free from Parabens
  • Free from Alcohol
  • Free from Mineral Oil 
  • Free from Triclosan
  • Free from SLS
Eversoft Organic Facial Cleansers line have 6 types of cleanser for different complexions.

  • Organic Avocado & Rice Bran for extra nourishing
  • Organic Coix Seed & Hyaluronic Acid for hydrating and supple
  • Organic Camellia Flower & Mulberry for whiten and radiant
  • Organic Tomato & Cucumber for pore refining 
  • Organic Yuzu & Gingko for acne and oil control
  • Organic Apricot & Mulberry for blackhead clearing
Best kan? They have solutions for girls' skin problems. I am glad I found Eversoft and I'll use it for longgggg period insyaAllah kalau tiada masalah lain.

I trust Eversoft, how about you?

Thursday, 1 June 2017

things I do at home


It's almost 2 months since the day I sat for my last paper. I used to say I hated staying at home instead of finding a job because I need money. I think I can now bear with it.

I'm starting to enjoy staying at home. I do everything I love to do.
I read webtoons; Siren's Lament, Oh! Holy, I Love Yoo, Orange Marmalade and few more & I read my childhood Doreamon comics collection & I read novels too.
When semester 3 starts, I can't enjoy watching K-shows as much as I do now, right? πŸ‘Ž For drama, I'm currently watching Fight My on Way, My Sassy Girl, My Secret Romance and Rebel. As for variety show, as usual I watch my all time favourite shows, Hello Counselor, Return of Superman, Running Man, Law of the Jungle and Weekly Idol.
Oh yeah! Have you watch Seventeen's Don't Wanna Cry and iKON's Bling Bling? They are litttttttt πŸ”₯πŸ”₯ And after a year of silent, iKON is finally doing a comeback with a great hip-hop song! I wish they can win at Music Bank and Inkigayo πŸ† As for the Pledis's boy group, I was never watched any of Seventeen's MVs before because I used to hate new boy groups especially if they have huge number of members. But, Seventeen's new song keeps on replaying in my head!!! They are so good <33333333 Guess what, I've picked my bias in Seventeen already.......who else but Vernon, the Korean-American boy 😍 He's the same age as me.

I always enjoy dancing especially to any kpop songs. During semester 1 break, I learned BTS's Blood Sweat Tears. And for this semester 2 break, I'm going to learn more dance. I'd learned Winner's Really Really, K.A.R.D's Rumor and Twice's Signal choreography. I am thinking about learning Seventeen's new song and also iKON's Bling Bling πŸ’ƒ
I might be a bit late but I've started my weightloss journey. Well, lets see what's going to happen next.