Wednesday, 6 September 2023
suprise bachelorette party
Hello everyone 🥰 ~~
It has been almost 2 month since we were married 😍 alhamdulillah life has been so good these days & I also received a good news of being accepted as occupational therapist at the company that I applied 🥰 orang kata rezeki kahwin hehehe
Well, jom cerita pasal my bachelorrete party that was hosted by my primary babes 💞 sebenarnya aku tak sangka pun akan ada sebab memang dah pasrah dah sebab seminggu lagi nak kahwin tapi takde sorang pun yang buat 🥹 lagi pulak 1st day of july tu raya haji lagi lah orang busy dengan balik kampung apa semua 😭 so memang dah tak expect apa2 pun huhuhu
Masa hari ahad tu supposedly aku dengan dayah pergi spa sebab dia nak temankan aku 😋 lepastu alang2 tu dia ajak pergi kenny hills baker katanya tak pernah pergi so, aku onz jelah sebab aku pun sama 😂 hari esoknya tu aku tanya lah kot2 kawan2 lain join pastu dayah cakap tak so cedih sikit 😢 tapi takdelah terlalu sedih sebab memang dari awal takde plan pun kan hukhuk so kitorang pergi lah kenny hills berdua, tapi dayah macam slow sikit jalan masani aku taktau kenapa hahahaha 🤣🤣 bila depan kenny hills tu aku cam WEHHHHH AKU NAMPAK SEMUA BESTIES AKU??? 🥹😭 LURVEEEEE 🤍☁️🫶🏻 dengan semua pakai pink aaaa sis suka!!!
Memang unexpected sangat ཻུ۪۪♡.⚜💫 sukaaa dan terharu sebab i was treated like a princess huwaa maceh sangat2 korang ✨😍😭
Here’s a snippet of my bach partyzzzz 👰🏻♀️
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Monday, 24 July 2023
080723 - we're married!
Salam hi everyone 🥰
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Monday, 14 November 2022
one step closer – 121122
Halu lurve 🤍✨ lama tak update sini but just want to share something good and nak simpan sini as memory hehe
As what written in the title, i'm happy to announce that we are one step closer 💓 yes, Fila and I! Teheee hoping those yang follow since day 1, are happy for us! Thanks in advance beautiful souls 🥺 i've been waiting for this day to come and alhamdulillah i am his fiancée now 🤭
We're not planning to get engaged at the first place but it happened 😂 so early this year we talked about gettin' engage etc and we've finally told about our plan to our parents. Well, he told my parents (i just curi2 dengar dari dapur sambil sengih2 hahahahaha). Fast forward a few months later, on 12 November 2022, it's our engagement day 💓
The e-day preparation was done since October ✨ we went to ThankQ, Nilai just to buy barang2 dulang hantaran hahahaha all the way to Negeri Sembilan tho 😂 but it was fun! Planning to bring my mom there bila kitorang nak beli barang nikah pulak nanti sksks. Went to romantika for the flowers and oh god! The flowers and all the dulang hantaran accessories costed us RM200++ 🤧 never thought it was so expensive shhss no wonder lah survey sewa dulang hantaran pun gitu jugak harganya 😌 I wanted to do it myself sebab I percaya my aesthetic & creativity thang hahahaha yknow what??? I shouldn't have sebab I tak aesthetic langsung!!!! 😭😭😂 Bencikkk hahahaa tapi takpelah I'm still proud with the results 🤪
We were planning to just invited his family (mak ayah adik beradik and orang tengah) and same goes with my side. Sekali ha amekk 100 jemputan pulak dah 😂 tapi yang jemputan tu memang close family and close friends only lah tu pun tak dapat jemput ramai sebab limited huhuhu harap takde yang kecil hati 🥺 tapi tulah Alhamdulillah dapat jemput kawan sekolah rendah and kawan diploma sebab memang nak buat mini reunion gitu 😍 ada Yan, Dayah, Fatin, Mira, Qiha, Pika, Mekti, Nora, Ati and Izzah hehee seronok sangat!! 💓💓💓 I also invited few of my degree frens but there are currently in Kelantan and Terengganu for hospital training jadi diorang tak dapat lah datang huhuhu and kita nak ajak kawan highschool macam Pajana etc tapi dah ramai sangat mama kata 😭
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The food was good Alhamdulillah 😍 thank you so much to my parents ngehehe thank you to all my family yang sponsor this and that (moga dimurahkan rezeki) and to all my frends who are helping me on the night before and on the eday lahvvv u all 🌷
Tuesday, 8 March 2022
to our-happily-ever-after
I am so happy. I can't believe that my prayers has been answered. Walaupun hanya seciput tapi it means so much to me 🥺🤍
Last two days, 6 March 2022, he vidcall-ed me on Sunday. Well, that has been our Sunday routine since the last 3 years. BUT!!!! The content was different hehe. He told me his parents called him out at the living room wanted to discuss about his plan to our-happily-ever-after. Guess what??? They agreed 😻🥺✨✨✨ we took our kursus kahwin already in December so yes, I need to see some progression obviously 😹
We planned to get engaged in tettttt and get married in tettttt (censored lol). Not gonna exposed yet because.....I also don't know the date hahahahaha he has been wanted to make it a suprise since the day we took our kursus kahwin tho. Dia kata nanti tahu2 dia datang 😹 iyolah apa2 pun tak kisah asalkan kahwin ye dok hehehe.
If anyone reading this, please please please pray for us 🤍🥺 doakan semoga semuanya dipermudahkan, dikuatkan hubungan, dijauhkan dari segala ujian berat yang menakutkan (because honestly I'm scared to death when I heard about ujian tunang) jadi aida mintak doakan tau!!! 🤍🥺 Doakan aida dan Fila oki hehehw ✨✨✨
Thursday, 9 December 2021
1001 days
Happy 1001 days my dear Fila 🤍 since I love you so much, I agreed to celebrate our 1001 days together instead of 1000 days 😻
So in next coming years, we'll celebrate 2002, 3003, 4004, 5005, 6006, 7007, 8008, 9009 and more. Kan? 🙊
I feel so happy. I was happy before, but with him, I feel complete 🤍 He gives me things that I couldn't get on my own and things that I believe not everyone could do; love, loyalty, attention, trust, patience, kindness, assurance, understanding, respect, lot of messages, lot of calls and vidcalls.
Tak semua mampu buat, dan paling penting bukan semua mampu tahan untuk handle aku. But he handles me so well and gives me abundance of love ❤️🥺
Semoga baik-baik saja untuk kita. May Allah ease our future plan 🤍 till forever
Saturday, 13 November 2021
in secret
i'm kinda jealous of other couples.
i mean we're happy but i just miss being exposed by the other one. idk why but he just rarely exposed me. as a woman, of course lah siapa tak terasa. i've been tolerating and fighting my own feeling.
nak sedih, nak nangis but i hold it in.
and i feel jealous to see my friends going out for dating with their partners and post igstory. we used to do that. we used to. now, rarely. setahun sekali, dua kali. i can count.
writing this pun dah nangis. penat kan jadi perempuan.
i just want to be the old us. tak kisah orang cakap banyak kali keluar ke, kaya ke, makan mahal ke, pergi banyak tempat ke. if there's people yang akan persoalkan, i will bluntly say Eh aku guna duit kau ke, menyusahkan mak ayah kau ke? Annoying. Duit aku, suka hati aku lah.
i don't want to live a life where i have to pleased people. i'm tired of doing so tho.
and i really hope that he'll think the same and become the old him. i just miss you, the old you.
i told you i was sad because i want you to post about me without me telling you. but see, sampai harini pun takde. now i know that although you said i'm important, i'm not really that important anymore.
Saturday, 30 October 2021
playing tourist in kl | searching for bts pop-up store with love
Haluwww 🌻 here's another post of playing tourist walaupun dah pergi kl banyak kali tapi finally buat jelah post sebab asyik simpan sorang2 je kan nak buat apa.
So on weekend, Fila and I went to several places in KL in a day. We had a great time together and I felt so happy with him around.
First in the morning, we went to Pasar Seni 🥰 We've been there few times yet we still hadn't get chance to do batik painting 🎨 ni semua salah korang lah hahahahaha viralkan lagi kan dah penuh 🙊 but we went for breakfast at kedai mamak dekat situ and masuk pasar seni literally jalan-jalan.
Then we took mrt to one utama because we've never been there. Pergi situ sebab Fila kata dia nak cari pop up store bts!!! 👀 Hahahaha guys since when my cute boyfriend interested in bts 😂 first kitorang pergi myeongdong topokki & order spicy tteokbokki level pedas gila (yakin sungguh macam biaso) sekali hambekkk kebas, berpeluh semua ada 🙈
Dia belanja aiskrim rollney huhuhu macehh sayang ❤️🥺 sedapp sangat2 perisa honey tu dia macam aiskrim vanilla and ada topping cornflakes dengan honey gitu 🍯 dia punya roti tu lembut gilaaaa and sedap!!!! Lepas dah makan share aiskrim rollney dengan llao llao....
Maka bermula lah misi mencari pop up store shshshs it was fun exploring places with him 🤍 but not fun part would be "sakit kaki" hahahahaaa both of us dah kepenatan nyah. Mana taknya nak cari bts store je dah sampai 10k steps ko rasa???? 😩 Tapi Fila pantang menyerah lah gitu ecewah hehehe dia teruskan cari dan cari sebab yelah weh memang complicated nak cari 😐 dia level G tapi bukan dekat G eh cemana tu hahahaa pening 🥴
And here we go the bts pop up store!!!
We were shook because nak masuk kena pakai benda ni macam pergi concert pulak 😂 he was so excited and it's so cuteeeeee 😍
These are some of the pics inside the store. It was a good experience tbh. Tapi nak beli tu idok le kome. Mahal mattt hahahaha kalau wanna one tu boleh lah nak consider beli 🙈
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| Trust me, I was forced to take this picture 🤣 |
Thursday, 29 July 2021
pbl test
Done with pbl test. It was so hard. I've been struggling with OT degree so much. Repeat one paper already and I feel I'll repeat another paper this semester. It is just too hard.
Rasa nak nangis, nak quit. Rasa malu bila classmates elok je pandai boleh buat, boleh jawab, boleh cakap lancar. But when it's my turn, I doomed.
Penat pun ada.
Tapi bila fikir nak quit, dah tu aku nak buat apa? Aku nak kerja apa? Walaupun I do have diploma in pharmacy but still fikir macam eh aku nak kerja apa kalau quit degree ni????
I love pharmacy especially job scope dia. OT is a good profession. Bantu orang sampai boleh jalan, boleh bergerak, boleh faham, boleh independent. Tapi the job scope is not so me faham tak?
Aku dah lah nak bukak mulut ni ya Allah payah betul. Ni pulak nak cakap, nak assess orang dengan berapa ratus banyak assessment yang ada and buat intervention. Tapi working hour dia best sebab 8am to 5pm instead of pharmacy assistant ada shift malam and so on.
Susahnya nak habiskan. Halfway thru, another halfway to go 💔
Tuesday, 8 June 2021
where's all the love goes?
I just wonder, where's all the love goes?
How can it became lessen when here, I am struggling to protect it so that the love won't fade?
Love won't stay without will, I believe.
If the mind say yes, the heart remains the same despite whatever happen in the future. But if it say no instead, the heart definitely gonna lose the spark and eventually the love bit by bit.
Should I stop or should we? Because if the feeling wasn't there anymore, or if one party has changed and lose the feeling, it has become worthless and time wasting. Isn't it? Why should we invest on something yang kita tahu pengakhirannya bagaimana?
My hope on the future is so big and a lot of effort have been made that it hurts me so much now.
Friday, 4 June 2021
cheezilla suprise
Salam hi 🌿
Can I just share all the good moments I had here? As I read my old posts on the early days how I had a crush on this Fila guy and how much I shared about him here, I think I missed out lot of splendid moments in my life by being secretive (trying to be "matured" but nah idc anymore). Keeping secret is good but sharing is too right?
1st June was a very good day! 🥺❤️ For the first time in 2+ years, Fila made a food suprise by ordering me KFC via Grabfood. He's currently stucked in his uni due to covid-19 and I'm here stucked in his heart cewah 🤭 I've always been seeing others' partners doing food suprises in socmed, but never actually experience it. To be honest, I feel so loved, appreciated, happy and almost cried out of joy ❤️🥺 he never did that before, and idk why but thank you so much sayang for everything 🥺
The cheezilla tastes extra goooooood because you gave it to me heheh 😋 thank you for all the efforts Fila, I am truly touched and happy (so so sooooooo happy!!) 😍
Thank you for being the source of my happiness then, now till forever 💘
Tuesday, 1 June 2021
at ease
It's been awhile since the last time that we really talk about the future we wanted to create together. Because of that, the future seems blurry, so I wrote a letter about that and sent it to him. I think it made him realize how I really feel inside, and he told me things I wanted to hear. Things that comfort me.
Thank you for not saying "bila dah cukup semuanya, saya datang dekat awak" ❤️ with that only, already makes me feel at ease.
Korang tunggu ada duit dulu baru sedekah atau korang sedekah dulu dan percaya yang rezeki tu akan datang? Which one are you? If you are chose the latter then you must believe on this one too,
Korang cukupkan semuanya kereta, rumah dulu baru kahwin atau kahwin dulu dan usaha untuk cukupkan semuanya?
This concept was given by Kak Kay. She insisted people to get married especially to those who are in relationship. Kenapa? Supaya percintaan tu bawa ke syurga.
And that's what I want.
Thank you so much dear sayang for your understanding, for your patience. I love you more than anything else. You are the one that I want to spend my whole life with. May we achieve the future we dream today. Aamiin ya rabb 🤲🏻
Thursday, 27 May 2021
duka itu sementara
I read this somewhere,
Duka itu sementara,
Tapi sementara itu lah melukakan.
I slept and drift into a painful dream where you ignoring me.
Do you know what's hurt the most?
I woke up and you still ignoring me as you did in my dream.
I am certain that I'm fully awake.
But why, why does it feel like I'm still stuck in that painful dream?
no option
If giving up is ever an option.
No matter how much I tried to create the future, how much I said to myself that the future I wanted will be created someday, I just can't see it. There's no clear future plan. For me to feel at ease.
I don't know what the future holds now, and no one will.
Saturday, 27 February 2021
let's meet again sweetheart!
1 March 2021 he will be going back to his uni for physical training 🥺 2 days left and how I wish covid will go away very soon so that I could meet him just like before the pandemic strikes. I was thinking when will we able to meet again?
2 years and he's still my favourite person ❤️ he makes me feel beyond happy! He makes me feel relax whenever something bothering me. He makes me smile when I feel down. After the day, I always looking for the bedtime. Our midnight calls is everything to me. Thank you for always calling me before you go for sleep ❤️ I love you so much sayang, I really do.
Thank you sayang for the amazing 2 years together ✨ as always, I will always pray for you, for me, for us 🥺❤️
Till we meet again in April oki my handsome boy ❤️🥺 nak berbuka sama sama :(
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