no one will stay

by - May 27, 2019


بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ 
In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful


These days, I feel so left out. Kawan-kawan aku semua keluar tanpa aku. Tanpa notis. Okay, once in a while, it's fine sebab aku faham. Mungkin mereka perlu their own spaces atau ada benda yang nak dibincangkan tanpa aku dengar (husnuzon). But it happened all the time. Dua orang kawan aku yang aku rapat these last few weeks pun buat benda yang sama, setelah jumpa kawan baru.

I really have no idea what should I feel. 

But it's hurt. A lot. 

And this is also the reason kenapa aku susah sangat nak betul-betul percaya orang. Sedangkan kawan yang dah duduk sebumbung pun mampu buat aku rasa macam ni, apatah lagi orang lain. Kan? Ke tak?

I'm writing this while trying to hold my tears (it's hard duh).

And now, everything does makes sense. No one will stay. I just need me, and the Creator. But, Alhamdulillah I should be grateful because at this moment I still have my family with me, and Fila. No one knows until when he'll stay. Tapi selagi ada, aku bersyukur dan aku appreciate sangat.

Doa-doa moga dia sentiasa ada.

Till then xoxo







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9 Comments

  1. That feeling struck me as well. I used to feel like that a lot but end up giving up and let it all be. Cried my heart out and I started to care less. I don't give a damn anymore cuz it will only end up hurting me even more. Please stop hurting yourself dear. Don't hold your tears and let it all out. you'll feel better. In shaa Allah.

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    1. I've started to care less ;) thank you so much for the kind words!!

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  2. True. No one stays forever and I hope you're strong enough to go through this. And I pray that he stays with you for as long as time allows ��

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    1. Aamiin, thank you so much!! May Allah bless your soul 🙂

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  3. allahu sis. i feel u sooooo much. stay strong okay??

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  4. Is all the picture on the blog taken by you?

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    1. All the pictures are taken by me except for the intro picture. They're taken from pinterest :)

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