Friday, 18 March 2022

only you

I knew I am unconditionally and irrevocably in love with this one guy when everything I do, everything I saw reminds me of him. 

It's him.

Only him, Arif Farhan.

Tuesday, 8 March 2022

to our-happily-ever-after

 I am so happy. I can't believe that my prayers has been answered. Walaupun hanya seciput tapi it means so much to me πŸ₯ΊπŸ€ 

Last two days, 6 March 2022, he vidcall-ed me on Sunday. Well, that has been our Sunday routine since the last 3 years. BUT!!!! The content was different hehe. He told me his parents called him out at the living room wanted to discuss about his plan to our-happily-ever-after. Guess what??? They agreed 😻πŸ₯Ί✨✨✨ we took our kursus kahwin already in December so yes, I need to see some progression obviously 😹

We planned to get engaged in tettttt and get married in tettttt (censored lol). Not gonna exposed yet because.....I also don't know the date hahahahaha he has been wanted to make it a suprise since the day we took our kursus kahwin tho. Dia kata nanti tahu2 dia datang 😹 iyolah apa2 pun tak kisah asalkan kahwin ye dok hehehe. 

If anyone reading this, please please please pray for us 🀍πŸ₯Ί doakan semoga semuanya dipermudahkan, dikuatkan hubungan, dijauhkan dari segala ujian berat yang menakutkan (because honestly I'm scared to death when I heard about ujian tunang) jadi aida mintak doakan tau!!! 🀍πŸ₯Ί Doakan aida dan Fila oki hehehw ✨✨✨

Thursday, 9 December 2021

1001 days

Happy 1001 days my dear Fila 🀍 since I love you so much, I agreed to celebrate our 1001 days together instead of 1000 days 😻 

So in next coming years, we'll celebrate 2002, 3003, 4004, 5005, 6006, 7007, 8008, 9009 and more. Kan? πŸ™Š

I feel so happy. I was happy before, but with him, I feel complete 🀍 He gives me things that I couldn't get on my own and things that I believe not everyone could do; love, loyalty, attention, trust, patience, kindness, assurance, understanding, respect, lot of messages, lot of calls and vidcalls.

Tak semua mampu buat, dan paling penting bukan semua mampu tahan untuk handle aku. But he handles me so well and gives me abundance of love ❤️πŸ₯Ί

Semoga baik-baik saja untuk kita. May Allah ease our future plan 🀍 till forever

Saturday, 30 October 2021

playing tourist in kl | searching for bts pop-up store with love

Haluwww 🌻 here's another post of playing tourist walaupun dah pergi kl banyak kali tapi finally buat jelah post sebab asyik simpan sorang2 je kan nak buat apa.

So on weekend, Fila and I went to several places in KL in a day. We had a great time together and I felt so happy with him around. 

First in the morning, we went to Pasar Seni πŸ₯° We've been there few times yet we still hadn't get chance to do batik painting 🎨 ni semua salah korang lah hahahahaha viralkan lagi kan dah penuh πŸ™Š but we went for breakfast at kedai mamak dekat situ and masuk pasar seni literally jalan-jalan. 

Then we took mrt to one utama because we've never been there. Pergi situ sebab Fila kata dia nak cari pop up store bts!!! πŸ‘€ Hahahaha guys since when my cute boyfriend interested in bts πŸ˜‚ first kitorang pergi myeongdong topokki & order spicy tteokbokki level pedas gila (yakin sungguh macam biaso) sekali hambekkk kebas, berpeluh semua ada πŸ™ˆ

Dia belanja aiskrim rollney huhuhu macehh sayang ❤️πŸ₯Ί sedapp sangat2 perisa honey tu dia macam aiskrim vanilla and ada topping cornflakes dengan honey gitu 🍯 dia punya roti tu lembut gilaaaa and sedap!!!! Lepas dah makan share aiskrim rollney dengan llao llao....

Maka bermula lah misi mencari pop up store shshshs it was fun exploring places with him 🀍 but not fun part would be "sakit kaki" hahahahaaa both of us dah kepenatan nyah. Mana taknya nak cari bts store je dah sampai 10k steps ko rasa???? 😩 Tapi Fila pantang menyerah lah gitu ecewah hehehe dia teruskan cari dan cari sebab yelah weh memang complicated nak cari 😐 dia level G tapi bukan dekat G eh cemana tu hahahaa pening πŸ₯΄ 

And here we go the bts pop up store!!!

We were shook because nak masuk kena pakai benda ni macam pergi concert pulak πŸ˜‚ he was so excited and it's so cuteeeeee 😍 

These are some of the pics inside the store. It was a good experience tbh. Tapi nak beli tu idok le kome. Mahal mattt hahahaha kalau wanna one tu boleh lah nak consider beli πŸ™ˆ 

My love ❤️

Trust me, I was forced to take this picture 🀣

Thursday, 29 July 2021

pbl test

Done with pbl test. It was so hard. I've been struggling with OT degree so much. Repeat one paper already and I feel I'll repeat another paper this semester. It is just too hard.

Rasa nak nangis, nak quit. Rasa malu bila classmates elok je pandai boleh buat, boleh jawab, boleh cakap lancar. But when it's my turn, I doomed.

Penat pun ada.

Tapi bila fikir nak quit, dah tu aku nak buat apa? Aku nak kerja apa? Walaupun I do have diploma in pharmacy but still fikir macam eh aku nak kerja apa kalau quit degree ni???? 

I love pharmacy especially job scope dia. OT is a good profession. Bantu orang sampai boleh jalan, boleh bergerak, boleh faham, boleh independent. Tapi the job scope is not so me faham tak? 

Aku dah lah nak bukak mulut ni ya Allah payah betul. Ni pulak nak cakap, nak assess orang dengan berapa ratus banyak assessment yang ada and buat intervention. Tapi working hour dia best sebab 8am to 5pm instead of pharmacy assistant ada shift malam and so on. 

Susahnya nak habiskan. Halfway thru, another halfway to go πŸ’”

Friday, 4 June 2021

cheezilla suprise

 Salam hi 🌿 

Can I just share all the good moments I had here? As I read my old posts on the early days how I had a crush on this Fila guy and how much I shared about him here, I think I missed out lot of splendid moments in my life by being secretive (trying to be "matured" but nah idc anymore). Keeping secret is good but sharing is too right?

1st June was a very good day! πŸ₯Ί❤️ For the first time in 2+ years, Fila made a food suprise by ordering me KFC via Grabfood. He's currently stucked in his uni due to covid-19 and I'm here stucked in his heart cewah 🀭 I've always been seeing others' partners doing food suprises in socmed, but never actually experience it. To be honest, I feel so loved, appreciated, happy and almost cried out of joy ❤️πŸ₯Ί he never did that before, and idk why but thank you so much sayang for everything πŸ₯Ί 

The cheezilla tastes extra goooooood because you gave it to me heheh πŸ˜‹ thank you for all the efforts Fila, I am truly touched and happy (so so sooooooo happy!!) 😍 

Thank you for being the source of my happiness then, now till forever πŸ’˜

Tuesday, 1 June 2021

at ease


It's been awhile since the last time that we really talk about the future we wanted to create together. Because of that, the future seems blurry, so I wrote a letter about that and sent it to him. I think it made him realize how I really feel inside, and he told me things I wanted to hear. Things that comfort me. 

Thank you for not saying "bila dah cukup semuanya, saya datang dekat awak" ❤️ with that only, already makes me feel at ease.

Korang tunggu ada duit dulu baru sedekah atau korang sedekah dulu dan percaya yang rezeki tu akan datang? Which one are you? If you are chose the latter then you must believe on this one too,

Korang cukupkan semuanya kereta, rumah dulu baru kahwin atau kahwin dulu dan usaha untuk cukupkan semuanya?

This concept was given by Kak Kay. She insisted people to get married especially to those who are in relationship. Kenapa? Supaya percintaan tu bawa ke syurga. 

And that's what I want.

Thank you so much dear sayang for your understanding, for your patience. I love you more than anything else. You are the one that I want to spend my whole life with. May we achieve the future we dream today. Aamiin ya rabb 🀲🏻