Thursday, 9 December 2021

1001 days

Happy 1001 days my dear Fila 🤍 since I love you so much, I agreed to celebrate our 1001 days together instead of 1000 days 😻 So in next coming years, we'll celebrate 2002, 3003, 4004, 5005, 6006, 7007, 8008, 9009 and more. Kan? 🙊I feel so happy....

Saturday, 13 November 2021

in secret

i'm kinda jealous of other couples. i mean we're happy but i just miss being exposed by the other one. idk why but he just rarely exposed me. as a woman, of course lah siapa tak terasa. i've been tolerating and fighting my own feeling. nak...

Saturday, 30 October 2021

playing tourist in kl | searching for bts pop-up store with love

Haluwww 🌻 here's another post of playing tourist walaupun dah pergi kl banyak kali tapi finally buat jelah post sebab asyik simpan sorang2 je kan nak buat apa.So on weekend, Fila and I went to several places in KL in a day. We had a great time together...

Thursday, 29 July 2021

pbl test

Done with pbl test. It was so hard. I've been struggling with OT degree so much. Repeat one paper already and I feel I'll repeat another paper this semester. It is just too hard.Rasa nak nangis, nak quit. Rasa malu bila classmates elok je pandai boleh...

Tuesday, 8 June 2021

where's all the love goes?

I just wonder, where's all the love goes?How can it became lessen when here, I am struggling to protect it so that the love won't fade?Love won't stay without will, I believe.If the mind say yes, the heart remains the same despite whatever happen in...

Friday, 4 June 2021

cheezilla suprise

 Salam hi 🌿 Can I just share all the good moments I had here? As I read my old posts on the early days how I had a crush on this Fila guy and how much I shared about him here, I think I missed out lot of splendid moments in my life by being...

Tuesday, 1 June 2021

at ease

 It's been awhile since the last time that we really talk about the future we wanted to create together. Because of that, the future seems blurry, so I wrote a letter about that and sent it to him. I think it made him realize how I really feel inside,...

Friday, 28 May 2021

you

 I would rather live my life seeing you everyday than not seeing you at all.&nb...

Thursday, 27 May 2021

duka itu sementara

I read this somewhere,Duka itu sementara,Tapi sementara itu lah melukakan.I slept and drift into a painful dream where you ignoring me.Do you know what's hurt the most?I woke up and you still ignoring me as you did in my dream.I am certain that...

Thursday, 27 May 2021

the same

 I didn't talk about you here as much as I did before. But I never forget. You filled my entire life. You keep on running in my mind. My heart filled with you. And that is what stay the same.&nb...

Thursday, 27 May 2021

no option

If giving up is ever an option. No matter how much I tried to create the future, how much I said to myself that the future I wanted will be created someday, I just can't see it. There's no clear future plan. For me to feel at ease.I don't know what...

Saturday, 27 February 2021

let's meet again sweetheart!

1 March 2021 he will be going back to his uni for physical training 🥺 2 days left and how I wish covid will go away very soon so that I could meet him just like before the pandemic strikes. I was thinking when will we able to meet again? 2 years...

Tuesday, 19 January 2021

hopes & goals 2021

This is pretty much resolutions post for 2021 🤟🏻 I want to achieve the BIG WHY I started aedascarf (in a year or two aamiin)I want to understand few surahs, the meaning of every ayatSolat diawal waktu 🤍 jauh lebih awal dari sekarang sebab kadang...

Wednesday, 6 January 2021

things that i'm proud of in 2020

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most MercifulAssalamualaikum and hello 2021 🌿I wish you all a happy new year! If you can go through 2020, then 2021 gonna be a piece of cake ❤ hehehe so let's recap...